Ayano no Koufuku Riron (Ayano's Theory of Happiness)

I remember our first time, back then.. One fine afternoon, I was reading my new book, about a hero saving other people's happiness. I'm very excited when I'm reading that book. Mother came home, she brought back three children, soon to be my own siblings. I was flowing with happiness, "This is Ayano, she's your onee-chan from now on, please get along well.." Mother said smiling at me then at those children. Two of them are boys, and one of them is a girl. The light brown haired boy named Kano Shuuya, the black haired boy named Seto Kousuke and the green haired girl named Kido Tsubomi. They're all different, but they have common red eyes. "I'm a monster.." they said, with such a sad expression on their face. I want to be their onee-chan, their onee-chan who protect them and give them happiness. I quickly get my book and show it to them "See~? The hero who saves other people's happiness, proudly wearing the cape of red." I said, grinning at them. Then I wear my red scarf, posing a heroic pose, " Hora~ look at this, this red muffler looks like a hero, right? This is only our secret~!" I put one finger in front of my smile, saying to keep it a secret. We all laugh, and happiness can be seen in our smile. The next day, I gave them a present, three hoodies, a black hoodie with three light brown dots on the side of it for Kano, a purple ipod-like hoodie for Kido, and a plain white hoodie for Seto. They smile happily.

"I want to protect that smile, I want to protect their happiness, I want to protect my family and my happiness until the end." I said to myself, as if I'm promising. We spent our times together, we went to the beach together, we go to the flower fields together, we even sleep together. Two years passed, I'm in Junior High School, I have a lot of friends there. I enjoy every second of my life, and I have three best friends, Enemoto Takane, Kokonose Haruka, and my classmate, Kisaragi Shintaro. Though my grade is bad, I'm not worrying it a little bit, but it quite make me sad, but I keep on smiling, "Hey Shintaro, what did you get?" I asked to the boy sitting beside me. He just sighed and answered shortly "perfect". He always got a perfect score, yet, I don't understand why he rarely smile. That's why I start to practice making papercrane out of my paper test and give it to him, I don't know if it helps or not, but I hope he's happy. 

One day, a day when the sky is not clear enough to make the sun appear, a photo of my smiling mother, surounded with a lot of beautiful flowers. My father's crying, my three siblings pouring their tears over. I'm shaking. "I can't cry.. If I cry, I'll only make them more sad." That's what I thought. A smile plastered on my face, it hurts so much, but I have to keep on smiling, to be their onee-chan. Those three never smile again since then, except Kano, but his smile, hides something. And ever since then, father rarely go out of his work-room.

In curiousity I peeked into his room, and see no one there. I went in slowly and wandered around. Something caught my eyes, I went near father's work-table and sees some kind of a profile there. "Human....experiment?" I tilt my head as I read the word.

My breath seems to stop, and I widen my eyes, seeing two photo of my best friend, "Haruka..? T-takane?.." I said in confusement, wondering what is father going to do with them. I know too much. But I can't tell anyone about it, because if I do, everyone's happiness will be gone. I don't know what to do anymore, so I just keep it as my own secret. Walking out of father's room, with still a smile plastered on my face. I do my rutine as usual, trying to get good grade, but failed, and me and Takane got into the summer class and got extra lessons. Sometimes Haruka teach us. My grade got a little better and I'm very happy of it, everyone's happy for it too. Seeing this, making me remember about that horrible thing I saw. I just can't bear it again I guess. I giggled as I walk up the school's rooftop. "I know too much, and everyone'll know this soon.. So I guess, this will help right?" I scratched my cheek. "Have I become their onee-chan?" That thought flashed through my head. A single tear rolled down my cheek, stepping closer to the edge of the roof. "If I go to this endless world, will I save everyone's happiness?" I said to myself, leaving a papercrane made out from Shintaro's papertest on the roof with another one.

"I'm sorry... I know too much... If you remember what I said, that I love that word -'Happiness'- so much, please love your tomorrow." The last thing Ayano muttered before jumping off the rooftop. The next other day, no one could find Ayano, some of them said that she disappeared, and some of them said that she went to the Endless World.

--"I'm sorry...I've died.. Goodbye"--haj


*this is basically based on a Kagerou Project song titled 'Ayano no Koufuku Riron'. You can watch it by clicking this*